Valentine's Day

I now love myself enough to not celebrate Valentine's Day and not feel guilty. It's overrated, commercial and superficial. And I'm not just saying that cause I'm mostly single. Yeah, mostly single. Because right now, no one fills the void of love enough for me to fully commit. So instead, I'm free and independent. With nonchalant arrogance, I can communicate my intentions of dating without anticipation. With a straight face I talk of my goal of staying single and of never really having a strong healthy relationship. Without flinching or pinching myself, the words flow out, "I'm just not ready to commit right now. " That's somehow adult of me, but I feel so childish. I'm afraid of getting close enough to smell the stink of true relationship. Is that the man in me talking or am I just a scared child looking for love? I don't know. I stopped looking for love a long time ago, because I was searching for it in other people. Where else would I look? Well, I lost love but found all the expectations. I'm now looking for love in other places; in me.

Here is a song that captures the simplicity and complication of love. Enjoy!

Love to Be
Les gammas - exercises de styles

There is a beautiful snow capped mountain,
With peaceful clouds wrapped around her shoulders
The surrounding air is filled with love and peace.
What is going to be, is what is
That is love.
There is no fear of leaping into the immeasurable space of love
Fall in love? or Are you in love?
Such questions can not, can not be answered
Because in this peace
Of an all pervading presence
No one is in and no is falling in and no one else is possessed by another
No one is possessed by
No one
No one is possessed by
No one

love is